Well, here I am again, up at 2:30 am, trying to write. I was thinking about making my blog private, since nobody seems to want to see it, but at the same time, I don’t bother to read other people’s blogs either. I just don’t. I have an aversion to when people boast about themselves, or have worldly mindsets. That’s one reason why I deleted the old blogs. I detest others’ pridefulness. (Note that I didn’t say the PEOPLE, I said the PRIDE.)
Still, what is it that makes me write anyway? Why should I continue to bare my soul on here, while 99.9% of others flock to the Devil’s whims? Why should I waste my time and not see any activity for months on end? I’ll tell you why. Because there might just be one person out there that needs me, not for myself, but for the reason God placed me here.
It makes me think of how many missionaries spread the Gospel in other lands. yet don’t receive any converts. I am still oftentimes ignorant that God’s timing is not mine, and it is never a waste of time to serve Him, as long as I am faithful. It’s a terrible old habit of mine to expect immediate, numerous results. But even if that was to be, would I handle that well? Would I get to be one of those detestable prideful ones that I mentioned earlier? Who am I to expect any results at all if God is not in my writings? These are questions the Holy Spirit demands of me. I cannot stand before Him and say I did well, when I did wrongly.
In a nutshell, if God gave me this talent of writing, and He expects me to use it, and not listen to the lying Devil when he comes a’callin, and I simply OBEY the Lord and do what I’m supposed to do, then that’s all that matters. I have to remember that each time I post here, it has the potential to reach all over the world. So what if there’s no or barely any activity, at first? God can make the difference. If I can just light a spark, it can create a raging fire in someone’s heart. And if not, then at least I did my job.
Bear with me as I grow in grace. I have not arrived yet.
And neither have you.